I will strive to make peace with the violent silencing of your love.
That muffler might deafen the sound, but you still took the shot.
Pretending I’m not bleeding doesn’t heal the wound you brought.
I’m covered in scars you’ve chosen not to see.
You keep trying to shove me back in the closet and throw away the key.
You looked right through me when I called out for help.
You. keep. looking. right. through. me.
I am a ghost of whoever it is you want me to be.
You’ve taped a mirror to my forehead to create a version of me
That you can understand.
But that glass is dirty.
That glass is so dirty.
Can you not take one minute to see who I am?
You say that you love me, but you love me incompletely.
You have loved me incompletely.
And I get it, you are only human.
But, so am I.
Brother, look at me…
Can’t you see
That I long for your presence?
Sister, look at me…
Can’t you see
That I long for your understanding?
Mother, look at me.
Can’t you see
That I long for your embrace?
What happened to us?
What happened?
Why have you kept yourself so far away?
I used to think nothing would come between us.
But I was wrong.
You claim Christ as a reason to love me from afar,
But that’s the most false image of Christ I ever saw.
You think you know him so well,
But you didn’t even know that he’s coming to my wedding.
In order to build a bridge it needs to be built from both sides…
My hands are covered in splinters of a task only halfway done.
And I cannot go on.
It’s up to you now.